“I Believe” – The 24th of March 1984 – Shermer, Illinois

(found under a table in the high school’s library)

Principal Vernon,

I’m not a criminal. I’m not an athlete, a brain, a basket case, and I’m not a princess either. I’m just the kid who sat in the back, quietly, who you probably forgot all about.

Who do I think I am? That’s what you want to know. Well, that’s what I want to know, too.

Who do I think I am? I’ve spent the whole day wondering about that, while the other five ran around the hallways like idiots, while you sat in your office and stacked smug bricks around your fragile ego. I sat here thinking.

Who do I think I am?

Well, I don’t know. But I’ll tell you what I believe.

I don’t believe in the big stuff, the doctrines and the isms, the governments and the religions with their dogmas and assertions. I don’t believe in it, and I don’t believe that it works, and I don’t believe that our relations to any of that needs to have any relevance to our own selves.

I believe that there is no single thing greater than the individual and there is no greater activity than seeking to understand one.

I believe in instinct and intuition, in the sparking, electro-magnetic attraction that can exist between two things inevitably meant to be together. I believe that attraction can bring us all towards great things if only we let ourselves be drawn out of our shells by it.

I believe that I could be wrong, that I was wrong and that I will be wrong soon. I believe that my mistakes could lead to great earthquakes and volcanos that will swallow up the world, burn it to the ground and shake all civilization to ruin.

I believe that I’ll be happier dancing amongst the ruins of my life than you will be propped up on a throne in your great palace of sand and spittle.

I believe that because I believe in the power and the majesty of the greatest moment, rare as it is, when the universe hums along in harmony and two separate things come towards one and a single kiss can become an illuminating explosion and all shadows in the world are blown away by a single blinding light and it all just makes sense.

So what does that make me?

Crazy. I know.

And what does that make you?

Bertram Howards

 

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